Holy Crap, I’m 40.

In fact, I turned 40 years old almost a month ago.

What does it feel like to be 40 YEARS OLD?!?! Honestly, I feel no different than I did when I was 18 years old. The only thing different now is that I am much wiser than my 18-year-old self. I have made my share of mistakes. Some of them I had to make two or three times. Others I’m still making. Mistakes are lessons we are supposed to learn from.

Since my birthday, all I’ve been doing is thinking about where I am in my life and where I want to be. I guess this is common when one hits what could be considered “mid-life”. To be honest, I should have been making this assessment on a weekly to monthly basis. I’m way overdue for some soul-searching. At least I’m doing it now.

As the saying goes, better late than never.

At the age of 17, I had made up my mind that I was going to join the US Army and study Information Technology for my military occupational specialty (MOS for short). Those are two goals I can proudly check off of my list. After serving my time on my initial contract I didn’t reenlist and once my contract was up, I got out of the military and went back home. Ever since then, I’ve been winging it for the most part.

I can tell you for certain that winging it when it comes to your life is not the way to go. It may work for some people but for the vast majority of others, it leaves us unsatisfied, financially broke, and wishing we could have done things differently when we get old. Winging it when you have kids can make the situation a lot harder for you and your kids in the long run.


Me Currently

Winging it when you have kids can make the situation a lot harder for you and your kids in the long run.

Life is very much like a business whether you like it or not. It takes a plan, discipline, and work ethic to survive and thrive. I’ve been learning this lesson the hard way.

Here are a couple of examples of how I was winging it:

  1.  I’m 60lbs overweight. It’s completely my fault. I’ve been making terrible food choices, not exercising, and drinking minimal amounts of water. It’s not that I can’t lose the weight, I know I can. I’ve allowed external influences to affect me negatively and it’s had a huge impact on me.
  2.  At 18, I thought I would be making at least a 6 figure income by now. I’m not. Up until a few months ago, I’ve been doing the bare minimum to scrape by financially. It’s been completely by choice. It’s not that I didn’t want to, I was putting my hopes on my financial situation improving on someone else.
  3. I’ve been allowing the actions of others influence my decision making and it hasn’t been beneficial.

I’m 40 Years Old Now, it’s time to stop making excuses.

I’ve been battling my weight for over a decade now. Do you know how much it sucks to be overweight? I’ve been hiding behind a 10-year-old profile photo on all my social media accounts. I refuse to upload new photos of myself because of how ashamed I am of how I look. It is extremely painful to add the photo above. That whole feeling like a failure is a hard pill to swallow.

I’m just not one of those people who are into the “fat acceptance” movement that has swept the nation. I’m also not one of those people who want to give those who are thin or extremely fit a hard time simply because I’ve been lacking the discipline that the extremely fit clearly have.

Yeah, I know we are going to die eventually. We just don’t need to take the express train to get there. There is so much left in life to do.

On my About Me page, I wrote that I wanted to help people, that my goal was to inspire people to make better choices. All of it is still true. I want to do all of these things and more but the simple truth is no one is going to take my advice if I can’t my own.

So what am I going to do? My options are either keep doing what I’m doing and remain miserable or I cut the bullshit and make the hard choices to make the changes that I so desperately need to make happen.

I Have To Do Better

81 yr old Body Builder Ernestine Shepherd via Independent.co.uk

I guess I’m going to cut the bullshit and make the hard choices. I should be more like Ernestine Shepherd.

As far as my financial situation goes, it’s nobody’s fault but mine. It’s not the government’s fault, it’s not the rich man’s fault, nor is it societies fault. It’s mine. I own it. There are 1000 millionaires minted every day in the US. The resources are available for ANYONE to get ahead, quite a bit of them practically free and at the touch of your fingertips. There is no reason I should be scraping by. I have to rely on myself because that’s the only person I can count on.

I want to have nice things. My daughter wants to take classes not offered by public school. I want her to be able to take these classes. I want to travel the world and take my daughter to see how beautiful the world is in person.

Whether we like it or not life isn’t fair, nothing in life is free, and the reality is we can only count on ourselves to get what we want out of life. It’s not anyone else’s responsibility to pay our bills, make us happy, or to stay healthy but ours.

Now the question is, what do I do next. Here are a few small changes:

For weight loss:

1.) Drink more water. I vow to drink a gallon of water a day.
2.) Move more. Regimented exercise routines bore the shit out of me so I think I’ll put on the right music and dance, at least to start out with. Youtube has tons of dance mixes for workout music.
3.) Eat more veggies. I don’t eat junk food so that isn’t an issue.
4.) Post my progress.


I don’t want to work for someone else. Having to rely on someone else and their ability to make good business decisions so I can make an hourly pittance isn’t appealing anymore. Here is what I’ve come up with.

1.) Work on my blogs more. I have two of them. This one and another one dedicated to beauty products, etc.
2.) Learn all I can about sales and marketing to expand on what I already know and actually apply them.
3.) Create a product of my own and sell it.

If I can solve a problem and bring value to the marketplace I should be able to do very well in the market as long as I keep pushing. At least that’s what successful business people keep saying. 🙂

So here is what’s next.

I will post weekly updates on my progress for getting healthy. It’s the only way I can stay accountable.

I will focus on building my business. Some aspects of building my business are talking to people about it. It’s excruciating. AHHH!!! The fear of rejection is strong, but talking to people is necessary. Luckily there are massive amounts of training for that. The only hard part is the execution.

Now that I’ve bared some aspects of my soul, I want to hear from you.

If you are 40 and over, did you do some soul searching when you had your 40th birthday?

Has your life not turned out how you expected? If so did you make changes?

Is losing weight an issue?

How hard is it for you to stick with eating healthy?

Do you have a hard time staying away from sweets and junk food?

What do you do to make sure you drink enough water during the day?

Are you frustrated with how things are going in your life?

Inquiring minds want to know!

Comment below.


P.S. My comments regarding weight loss are strictly my opinion of my current situation. Everyone’s situation is different. There are people who have legitimate medical conditions that make weight loss extremely difficult to achieve.











What Insanity From The “News” Does This Week Hold For Us?

Something that has been happening with news and mainstream media that has claimed my attention. Only because of the sheer absurdness of it all.

That’s why I titled this post this post the way I did.

What Insanity From The “News” Does This Week Hold For Us?

For the sake of politics, this post will be pretty neutral and objective. I know our current POTUS is not a lot of people’s favorite topic. Plus a host of other issues with our current members of Congress have people hopping mad from all sides of the political spectrum.

I’m going to focus solely on the media and how it reports and behaves.

First, some background information.

Our current form of mainstream media is the result of the Telecommunications Act of 1996. This was signed into law by then-President Bill Clinton. This law was the first massive overhaul of telecommunications in the US in over 60 years.

The goal of the law was to foster competition and let anyone into the telecommunications through deregulation. Although the claim of allowing competition on some levels is extremely questionable.

The most controversial part of the law allowed for media cross-ownership. Media cross-ownership is the ownership of multiple media businesses by a person or corporation. These businesses can include broadcast and cable television, film, radio, newspaper, magazine, book publishing, music, video games, and various online entities.

Why is media cross-ownership so controversial? In 1980, 50 corporations owned American media. As of 2017, just 6 corporations own 90% of American mainstream media and that is subject to change at any given moment with new mergers. This infographic better explains it:

Who Controls The Media

Major news outlets such as NY Times, Washinton Post, The Chicago Tribune, and the San Francisco Chronicle do not fall under the umbrella of these corporate entities. However, that doesn’t mean they can’t be influenced by the media outlets in under corporate control.

For instance, the Washington Post is now owned by Amazon.com’s very own Jeff Bezos.

The intended role of the media is to act as a balance and an advocate for ordinary citizens against possible abuses of power and authority via the government and corporations.

Considering that so many sources of media are owned by so few corporations, the question begs to be asked, whose side is the media really on? Are they on the side of the people or are they on the side of the stockholder?

Whoever Controls The Media Controls the Mind

You Are Probably Wondering Why Should You Care.

Those who run the media have massive influence in the ability to control public opinion, influence popular culture, what your children think, the ability ruin someone’s life, cause civil unrest, and make or break the presidency regardless of who is in power.

While trying to find resources for this post I ran across some pretty interesting videos.

Considering that a handful of corporations own the mainstream media, how far fetched do you think the chances are that the news you watch is scripted?

The following video is a little over 6 minutes of news clips from different stations around the country all repeating the exact same story. If you go on Youtube, there are several videos showing multiple examples of this. Here is one example:

Another video I came across is a clip of Mika Brzezinski from Morning Joe complaining that the current President is undermining the messaging and trying to control what people think, because that is their job.

What she said was so shocking that it made news on several independent news sites. She tried to come out social media and defend what she said but too many people just weren’t buying it.

So if the media is scripted and they admit that their job is to control what people think then how can we even trust that mainstream media is telling the truth about anything? And how long has it been like that?

Think about that.

At this point in time, I personally do not trust anything that mainstream media reports. So much so that I have started to take the time to research what is being reported by corporate media for just about every topic. From reports of crime, the possible criminality of the current president, vaccines, public health scares, atrocities that are being reported from overseas, the European migrant crisis, climate change, and more.

Corporate media journalists/pundits have even come out against those in independent media and independent journalist saying they are fake news if what they report contradicts what is being reported by corporate media.

I just can’t trust mainstream media and the “news” anymore, and neither should you.

Business and finance news channels are pretty much the only channels that can be trusted at this point. Too much money is at stake.

My suggestion to you is to take the time to your own research. Youtube has tons of videos coming from directly from regular people like you and me who have no agenda who have first-hand experience in just about any topic and is able to show sources. Check out Ron PaulBased in LA, AMTV, Rebel Media, Lauren Southern, and Tim Pool for starters.

Same goes for independent media sites.

The “elites” in corporate media think the American people are stupid and will do and say anything to control us, influence our children, subvert our values, and destroy what we as Americans hold sacred.

Don’t believe that the likes of those who work at CNN think that we’re stupid, watch this:

Carr’s statement is in regards to those who voted Trump but that is really what they think of us. Jonathan Gruber, the architect of Obamacare, and for calling the American voter stupid on video. Congress called Mr. Gruber to testify about his statement regarding the American voter, among other topics.

People like that shouldn’t have that kind of influence over Americans much less public policy.

Interested in checking out what independent media has to say about current events? Check out the following:

Zero Hedge
Drudge Report
Conservative Treehouse
Activist Post

Infowars gets a bad rap but they regularly have people who are former employees of the government or have worked with the government in some form or fashion explaining what’s going on in our country and around the world. As well as people reporting from around the world about breaking news from their region.

Alex Jones can be hard to watch sometimes but the message is more important. Luckily he has other hosts that report the news.

Just listen and read what these independent media sites have to say and make up your own mind.



Media Helping Media


Spring Is In The Air – Here Comes The Allergies

It’s that time of year again in the Northern Hemisphere. Nests and dens are full of baby animals. The flowers are blooming and my orange tree is full of oranges. The earth is in renewal.

Even April the Giraffe finally had her baby

California Super Bloom – Facebook

California has managed to bounce back thanks to the end of the state’s multiyear rain drought. The deserts are in“super bloom” and the visuals are absolutely breathtaking.  

With Spring Comes Pollen

That horrible green powder is covering everything. I washed my car not even two days ago and now it lookslike I never touched it with soap and water.

Not only is that horrible green menace covering the landscape it’s also giving everyone horrible allergies.

California Super Bloom – Facebook

Luckily, as I have aged my allergies do not give me such a hassle anymore. My baby girl, on the other hand, has come down with a mild case of it. When I was her age I could barely breathe through my nose and my eyes watered constantly when my allergies would flare up.


I’m grateful that as of right now she doesn’t have that problem but if her allergies worsen, I will make sure to find the most natural way possible to tackle it. I’ve read too many horror stories of the dangers that over the counter medicines are posing for people.

Just last month or so, articles started circulating online that ibuprofen significantly increases a person’s chances of heart attack or stroke for people over 40 and it could be causing people’s deaths. Ibuprofen will eat a hole in your stomach if you don’t eat prior to taking it and that’s scary enough.

Springtime also brings spring cleaning

During the summer, Florida can get blisteringly hot. Right now is the perfect time to perform what people in t
he army call a GI Party to my house. The dust bunnies have accumulated in corners as well as behind and underneath furniture.

That surely can’t be helping with anyone’s allergies.

Spring cleaning will also allow me to go through my stuff and pull out the stuff I don’t use to donate and get the rest organized. It’s amazing to me how much stuff people can accumulate after a few years. My family only moved down here like four years ago and prior to moving, we unloaded a huge amount of stuff in yard sales and to the local thrift store.

Do you like to spring clean? What are your methods to get your home springtime fresh?

I like books. Do you?

I like books.

Do you like books?

I have a serious book collection and it’s all thanks to the creation of ebooks. My house isn’t big enough to handle all the books I would like to have. Most of the space on my spare laptop is full of ebooks. All kinds of them covering many different subjects.

I also have quite a collection on my Kindle. I even have a few gigabytes of hard drive space worth of audio books too.

Have I read/listened to all of them? Not hardly. Sadly, unproductive internet browsing has been a huge distraction. I am sucker for politics, history, UFO’s, business building related topics and spend lots of time looking up those topics.

Yeah I said UFO’s.

The internet is full of resources for all of those topics and a gazillion more. I have learned through lots of reading that what you learn in K-12 and main stream academia isn’t always accurate or just the tip of the iceberg when it comes to written history.

Another thing I have learned is that academics and intellectuals who have spent their life’s work chasing their theory on history, science, etc.. are hard pressed to change their views when new information has been gained. They will only change their view or admit the new information is accurate once the evidence is overwhelming and can no longer be ignored. Too much money goes into their work from outside sources that they don’t want to lose.

Thanks to the internet, I now am keenly aware of the real life Indiana Jones types that are making archeological history with their finds. Their work is not longer hidden or dismissed thanks to the instant access the internet gives these brave people to the rest of earth’s population that has the same technological capabilities.

Believe it or not, we still have groups of people living very simple lives in tribes around the planet. I’ll talk about that another day.

So yeah, I get easily distracted as you can probably tell. I have some character flaws to work on.

I have to take the good with the bad I suppose. My ability to be easily distracted online helps me find new books to add to my library. It’s even better when you are able get the books for free from the author. That doesn’t always happen but when it does, I take advantage of the situation.

Knowledge is power.

My Latest Additions



Credit / Amazon.com

Over the last month I have acquired five new books. A couple of them I learned about from listening to podcasts.

The two I learned about from the podcasts are:

Both were free from the Author and in ebook form. The cool thing is, I have downloaded them to my kindle as well so I have them in a couple locations.

The rest of my books were purchased in Kindle edition on Amazon. I never leave home without that handle little jewel.

One of the author’s of my recent kindle book purchases has been on quite a few documentaries and TV shows on the History Channel. He has also written many books in his chosen field.

That book is:

Mr. Daniken has spent a lot of time in Egypt and his knowledge and insight on the history of that area is pretty fascinating. I can’t wait till I am able to dedicate the time necessary to reading this book.

The other two books that I acquired through Kindle fall under the subjects of Self Help and Finance. They are:

These books are not light reading. They touch on some serious subjects. One is about the origins of humanity, the others are for improving my financial position and stopping crappy habits.

Conscious Millionaire is first I started on that book over the weekend. I plan on being done with it by Thursday. I have a feeling I will have lots of homework involved.

My question for you is….. How many books have you bought and read over the last couple of months?

If you are froggy tell me in the comments below.

Until my next post always remember, knowledge is power.




Why Is Staying On Task So Hard?

Just like most of the abandoned projects in my life, I swore that I would stay on task and dedicate time every day to keep this blog updated.

I have failed miserably. The funny part about this time around I actually feel somewhat guilty about it.

Why Is Staying On Task So Hard?

Why is it damn near impossible for me to stay on task when it comes to certain things? I know that I am not the only one that has this problem.

Focus has become such a problem for so many people, that Microsoft Corporation of all companies decided to do a study about it. Basically it said, goldfish’s have a longer attention span than we do now.

punygoldfishA goldfish!

That really sucks. At one time, saying someone has an attention span of a goldfish was an insult!

Seriously, people?!?!?!  When did this happen and how?

Thanks to those little idiot boxes we keep in our hands at all times (smart phones), the human attention span in countries where smart phones exist, has dropped from 12 seconds to 8 seconds.

Like we need more distraction. TV is already full of mind numbing “programming” that rob people of valuable time they will never get back.

What Can I Do To Fix It?

On the topic of learning to focus, a Google search reports back a total of about 4 billion website submissions for that topic. Apparently, this is a huge deal. That’s a lot of website submissions.


Hopefully out of all these sites, I will be able to find real usable information that will help me get a grip on my ability to focus. Business related blogs and sites I feel would be the best places to start.

The world is changing at a rapid rate, we must maintain our cognitive abilities. Not giving my brain a workout damn near guarantees a one way ticket to dementia.

I for one want to try to stay as sharp as possible mentally, to keep from being much of a burden on people when I get older.

Every day I am thankful for the internet and the access it gives to the copious amounts of information available that can make my life better. It also adds to my short attention span problem.

Now that I know what my problem is and the path to take to start correcting it.

I will give you an update on how well I am progressing in my getting my shit together!

Till then, leave me a comment below.




Spring Is here! But I’m Stuck Inside…

It’s Monday. Hooray!

I hate mondays


Spring is here! But I’m stuck inside…

Who am I kidding. No one likes Monday’s. Nobody! If you do there is either something wrong with you or you really like your situation.

Hopefully it’s the latter.

My typical Monday is housecleaning while listening to a podcast. Which in all reality, that is my whole week.

Kinda sad really, considering that I live six miles from the beach!

Not only do I have a sad little routine during the day. I also try to convince myself that I need to work out. Shortly after the idea pops up something will start aching. It’s almost like my body is protesting.

A tiny little obscure joint or muscle will yell out in a weak little NO!!!!

Shitty excuse I know. LOL!

Fortunately, small aches and pains is the worst thing I have going on. My heart goes out to my friends and family whose health has not fared as well at the same age. Every situation is unique.

Valencia Orange Tree

Valencia Orange Tree

IMG_20160411_112401517Spring is in full bloom where I live. Beautiful blooms are everywhere. Fruit trees are blooming and filling the air with a candy sweet scent. The roses are a resplendent display of beauty.

My husband bought a Valencia Orange Tree and Purple Rose Bush in pots last week. They were both transplanted to larger planters once we got them home.

The cool thing about orange tree is that it is producing fruit. Right now they are the size of a pea.

There is something very satisfying and exciting to the prospect of being able to eat fruit that I grew myself. Not to mention the whole flowering/fruiting process smells amazing.

I have stop writing for now.

Never ending laundry calls my name and I have books to read. Not to mention I totally need to find a way to get organized. Ugh!

If you’re lucky I’ll write about what I’m reading. It may come in handy for you and be a new source of inspiration, or become a new dust collector.

What do you have planned for the week?

My Kind of Crazy

imbackI’m BACK! Since you are probably new to this blog you probably don’t know and don’t care about my declaration.

This is my 4th blog. The first three went down in flames thanks to poor planning on my part and bad technical and customer support from my previous domain host. So here I am again in all my basic blog glory.

This time is different. My last few attempts at blogging, I really had a hard time to find something to talk about that I thought people would want to read. This time I’m writing about what I care about, what drives me, what pisses me off, and everything in between.

Welcome to My Kind of Crazy..

More to come…